KML TTC

Halfway there

2009-07-04T16:48:00.001-07:00

According to my weekly emails from one of these baby internet sites, I am halfway there :) Can't wait now. Seems such a loooong time to go.

I guess I have underestimated how tired one can be and I have being known to ask why I am so tired. So now I know that I can't offer to:

Help school mums sort out toys for the school fete,
Go to a picnic with Lopes and her friends and mum from school,
Bring one of the friends home with Lopes for a playdate
And expect to go out later in the evening for a sit down dinner.

ALL ON THE SAME DAY!

Had a soak in the bath and fell fast asleep. Lightweight!

So now I am taking it easy. Sounds like fun. Just need to do a bulk food shop, clean the fridge, and declutter the house. Sounds easy, Non??

Sleep, sleep, wherefore art thou??

2009-06-26T10:21:00.000-07:00

Needing to get up at least twice at night to pee is no fun. Takes ages for me to settle back so I surf the net on my phone and will sleep to come. Adult nappies have been suggested and If I ever succumb, I might as well start my journey into old age and decrepitude sooner rather than later.

What I find helps are early nights and afternoon naps and soaks in the bath. I also sniff the cork of a brandy bottle seeing as I am not allowed alchohol. Was not really a drinker of any sort but now I can't indulge, I have cravings on a huge scale. No other cravings but I have gone off sweet stuff which is quite amazing. Carbs and fruit are all I can take now.

Last night, Lopes and I had a long soak in the bath and then went to bed at 6.30pm. Woke up at 10.30 to wee and stayed up to hear the confirmation of the death of Michael Jackson. Then Lopes came into our room at 4am to enquire if it was morning. She then apologised for coming in and promptly settled down for a 2 hour chat!! Sent her off to school with dad and then could not get back to sleep. Hmmph! Made up for it with a nap in the afternoon while Lopes played on the wii and said she wanted to get fit. The wii has been in exile for a while but I am sure I can do some gentle exercises. Will find out what I can do before I start jumping around.

And so with a bowl of rice safely tucked away in my tum tum, we are off to bed. MiniLopes loves food and does a happy jiggle when I eat or drink. Movements have changed from the fluttering to distinct kicks and Lopes has been known to hang around patiently waiting for a kick. No joy so far but she has masses of patience.

We will be finding out what we are having but will try hard not to tell anyone :) Then again, I am open to bribes. I do want some Cinnabons (so much for going off sweet food). I have found they have 3 branches in Central London. Too far. Might buy loads and freeze them. Yum

And so far...

2009-06-04T02:39:00.000-07:00

I was sick as a dog for the the first trimester. Considering it was all plain sailing with Lopes, I was a bit confused as to the vast difference in the symptoms. No throwing up, just feeling sick all day and it got worse in the evenings.

Food
I then found out that the cure was carbs and loads of it. As one who was previously on a low carb diet, I found out that even though I was off plan, I still ate relatively less carbs than most. So I had, Rice for breakfast, loads of wholewheat cereal to snack on, potatoes for lunch and loads of carbs and fruit in between. I had to eat every 2 hours. I like eating but even I got fed up with the regimented eating. But it all paid off in the end. And in the first 14 weeks, I only gained 3lbs. Carbs can't be that bad. Can't eat sweet food though. Strange aftertaste :(

Sleep
Fatigue did not even describe the feeling. So I slept whenever I could and went to bed at 7.30 once Lopes was in bed. Bliss. Apparently, I snore :)

At 12 weeks, we had our first scan and Lopes came along as she was on half term. Absolutely loved it. All measurements and bloods were fine.

And today the midwife let me have a listen to the heartbeat :) Baby wriggles a lot especially after I have eaten or when I drink some cold water. Strange butterfly like feelings that BabaLopes said was wind!! Will say no more about wind.

So baby's name is MiniLopes. BabaLopes wants a boy as he feels outnumbered. Lopes wants twins and still feels there should be 2 in there. I just want to know if it's a boy or girl so I can either clear out Lopes' clothes and start shopping or keep Lopes' clothes and start shopping. Either way, we must shop.

Delivery
As Lopes was an emergency section, I have set my mind on having another section. They might try and make me change my mind but so far I have said section or I'm off to another hospital. No shaking!! Will keep you posted.

26th of March 2009

2009-03-26T13:50:00.000-07:00

On the 26th of March, I peed on a stick. There were 2 lines on the stick. Took 6 months. Old age no be joke.

In the meantime, I got another job so I now work 4 days, still have the business and now getting very scared. Jesu mi da?? (Where is my Jesus?)

I am supposed ot be working from home today and nothing is sinking in. Review files, process maps...yada, yada, yada.... Off to pee on another stick. 3 stick so far from my store of 25.

In the end, peed on about 10 sticks, still 2 lines. Oh dearie me :)

BabaLopes is in the Eastern land of rice, China, and if I tell him on the phone he might decide to stay there :)

Knocked up KML :)

Trial 3

2008-12-01T13:48:00.000-08:00

Trial 3.

I thought I was not playing anymore. Hey ho. And have decided not to actively try and if you believe that, you'll believe anything!! Marked out the ovulation days and will try but can't promise anything.

Okay ovulation has come and all the necessary bits have been done. I will not be as mad as I was before and promise to only pee on a stick when my period is late.

2 weeks waiting commences now. And we waited and waited and waited and nothing. So I gave up actively trying and decided that I had gained way too much weight and so needed to be serious about dieting.

In the meantime, have had botox for sweating, worked an absolute treat, paralysed the sweat glands but I guess they put the oyinbo dose and these African sweat glands came out of the botox induced paralysis after 6 measly weeks. So not fair. Will go back in the summer when I definitely need to stop sweating more.

December, January, February, March, period, ovulation, period ovulation, you know the drill. Yawn.

Trial 2

2008-11-01T13:46:00.000-07:00

Trial 2
Worked out the dates and was pleased to find out that it coincides with BabaLopes return from the land of the Belge. Then again we could have named the child Brussels but I am sure they would nickname him/her Sprouts so not a good moniker. Again all the meds on board and will refuse to test until I can't hold off any more. Have ovulation sticks as well! Here goes....

Okay, got dates set for month 2 of TTC. Got ovulation sticks, calendars and even started reading a book. God help me. BabaLopes was due back from work mid week at the end of his contract. All set and then…. Babalopes was ill. Bah humbug. Will see if we managed it this time around but almost sure we missed it.

Realised that as a carb junkie and as one who needs fully working scales, I have gained back a lil bit of weight. Back on the non processed carbs as my TTC seems to have given me carte blanche to eat foolishly even though the doc said I can leave out all the sugars. Started this week with a tuna mayo on oatmeal bread for brunch. Must remember to drink loads of water.

So now the waiting has commenced. Started poas again and not as sure as I was last month. Today is Sunday, 9dpo, and I feel a bit bloated and felt some sharp pains in my stomach. I say trapped wind but google says implantation. Will keep you posted.

Today is Tuesday night. I have been feeling very hot since Sunday night and was told I was radiating heat. I thought I might becoming down with something but google says early pregnancy sign! Did not have this on trial one and feel like this might be the sign of an impending BFP. Yikes, Yikes, Yikes. Will not think any deeper until I see the 2 lines on a stick. Talking about sticks, I have only 2 left. Started with 35. That should explain the slight KML madness. Had a good time with my friends and all our children as Lopes is on half term.

Got a call from my GP about my referral for my sweating. You see, I sweat buckets and have been doing so since I was a child and then diagnosed with hyperhidrosis. There is a semi permanent cure which lasts about 6 months each time and I have been referred as it got much worse since I started driving. So the wonder jab is Botox. The Botulism toxin which I am told they will not administer if I am pregnant. Hmmph. Roll on sweaty winter and summer. Might get them to sort out my frown lines while they are at it.

Thursday. 13dpo. Okay, my period should be due tomorrow. Still hot and all and very tired. Tested this morning with my last test and was negative. Why oh why do I feel so down??? Went to the cinema with Lopes this morning and fell asleep on and off. Sitting on the sofa ordering more sticks and getting a bit fed up. Off for a nap. Will keep you posted. And period started bang on time.

Toys thrown out of pram. Not playing anymore.

Set/Oct 2008

2008-10-01T13:41:00.000-07:00

Set/Oct 2008

Made an appointment to see my GP for preconception checks. Happily hopped on the scales and felt nice and warm when they stopped at 88kg. I remember the last time I hopped on the scales in her office. Weighed 100kg then and gained more before I started on the weight loss journey. Needed to check if I could continue with the eating plan. Can have more carbs as they are needed but no sweeties or junk carbs allowed. So we are all happy now.

Okay made sure all the calendars were checked and dates marked. Pencilled in a weekend of love so we could get all dates covered. Thank God the dates fell on a weekend as Babalopes is away during the week. Not filling in any of the details :) My neurosis then hit and I got out my poas sticks and kept checking everyday. Nothing, nothing, nothing. Except the flu and extreme exhaustion.

You see, with Lopes, I was known as the one shot wonder. I knew when it happened but the ensuing years have dulled the memory and the bits involved so I have taken to googling different phrases and reading up on the symptoms I should be having. I even started taking all my pregnacare meds the month before in readiness.

Tuesday, 10dpo (Google is a wealth of information :), Strange pains and butterflies felt in stomach. Google says implantation, I say too much rice and pepper soup. Jury is out on that one!

Thursday, 12dpo and I am sitting at my desk at work as I swapped days so I could spend Wednesday hurtling, literally, to and fro on the motoway as it was my sister’s birthday and she had just had major surgery. Working on the figures and trying hard to stay awake. Google says I could be pregnant but then again it could be because Lopes’ crawled into bed with me last night after pretending to have strange dreams. But at the back if my mind, I have a good feeling about this. Will keep you posted. And then my period started a day early, go figure.

Back to the drawing board :)

Glossary

TTC. Trying to conceive
XXdpo. Number of days past ovulation
POAS. Peeing on a stick. Pregnancy tests